See Through Clothes

I’m having a really hard time with nonsense lately.

I used to be better at it.  I could listen to nonsense, talk nonsense and just move around pretending to give a crap, but now I find myself making faces.  Sometimes I roll my eyes.  The eyes always give it away.  I should probably just wear sunglasses all the time.

Maybe that’s why Jack Nicholson wears them.

I’m not sure when my faking it ability began to wane, but I’m in a free fall these days.  I’m approaching Howard Hughes, On Golden Pond Katherine Hepburn.

I don’t want to try anymore to not offend or make small talk.  I’ll be honest, it’s a little scary.

What if I’m heading toward outcast land where I will end up one of those rude people that says things like, “Oh, well that’s just stupid,” or “What the hell is wrong with you?”

I can’t start being brutally honest, saying what I really think.  Not in this day and age when everything is just so agreeable, family bed, peachy keen.  Sure honest me may be a novelty for a while, but at some point people will label me nuts and stick me in the corner.

I’m trying to find my old self.  I make an effort to smile.  I ask questions, try to engage, but when I sense bullshit something comes over me and it’s that same feeling I get when I really have to pee.  I can see the person’s lips jabbering, but all I’m focused on is running.

It has to be that I’m getting older.  I’m tired.  Not sure, but I’ve had some close calls lately, so I need to either invest in a pair of all day Ray Bans or only allow myself limited time in the sandbox.

I can not cross over into no nonsense, honesty is the best policy.  That’s not nice.  Who does that?  No one will want to be around me.  Hmm…

My thoughts from the laundry room.  Stop Snoring!

 

 

28 thoughts on “See Through Clothes

  1. Exactly how I feel… the power of writing… to be able to put into words a feeling that many will recognize! 🙂

  2. My thoughts during conversation frequently include the phrases “Are you really that stupid?” and “That’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard”. Mostly I try to just nod my head and look like I’m listening.

  3. I have a very low tolerance for small talk and nonsense platitudes. I try to be diplomatic, but I’m not going to BS anyone anymore. Life’s too short.

  4. Just stop talking to them, be polite and everything, but slowly cut them out if you can’t stand to be around them. Life is too short to take on other people’s bull. Unless you really care about them, and they’d do the same for you, in which case shut your mouth and nod along 😛

    1. Exactly…less time in the general sandbox. That’s my plan. Love always shuts me up because you are right, I’m sure they do the same for me. Most of my tribe is bullshit free, so I’m lucky that way. Thanks Alys 🙂

      1. you’re very welcome. I’m sick of telling people this, especially my mum, she tends to let people upset her because she can’t understand why they do it, it’s just punishing herself, she needs to be harder. My best friend’s the same so it gets on my nerves a bit, because I care about them and it annoys me that people are upsetting them, but I can’t control, what other people do, only give them advice.

      2. A lot of people feel the need to make nice. I think I rocked the boat a little more when I was younger and then sort of slipped into a “make nice” mode, but I’m busting out now. Look out. If I end up in trouble, I’m going to be the crazy yelling, “Alys said I could tell it like it is, damn it!” As always, thanks for your comments 🙂

  5. If we took all the conversation on a cell phone and looked at it we would be amazed at the nothing that is said with such an important devise. The dinosaurs probably had more important conversations.

  6. Hmmmm, I think I am a no nonsense, honest to a fault kind do person. Sure people label me nuts and stick me in a corner, but I’m okay with it. I’ve learned how to control it. So come on over to the dark side!! 😉

  7. Reblogged this on Scrambled, Not Fried and commented:
    Congratulations, Sister! You are my very first re-blog!
    I suspect I’m a bit older than you, have sloughed off some of the resistance you seem so intent on maintaining. I’ll letcha know how it works out!

  8. a bow to you and whatever is shifting
    thank you for your post
    have you read the book “The Female Brain” by Louann Brizendine, MD…?
    the chapter on The Mature Female Brain might be of benefit…

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