I will be another year older next week. One more 365 day rotation completed. I will be baking my own cake. This year I have chosen the Chocolate Lavender Cake with Mascarpone Earl Grey German Buttercream. If I was looking for an accurate self reflection at this point in my life, I would probably go with the…
I’m in a riptide. It’s not my first one, but I never get used to them. I flail and fight and reach for land or a rock. I don’t like being carried in a direction I don’t want to go. It’s scary and I like control, I often convince myself I need control. The riptides seem…
I used to carry a big purse. I would pride myself on being able to shove anything in my purse. I had wipes, napkins, a big wallet with checks, Band-Aids, water, extra laces, Sharpies. Everything anyone could ever need. I would sometimes shove a book in there. I liked having lots of stuff. I wasn’t…
I feel like a crockpot tonight. Like I’m stewing in my juices and it’s only a matter of time before I cross over into something rich and nourishing, something I can finally understand and enjoy. I have spent most of my first fourty-two years searching for who I am, what makes me special, and what…
There are basics in everything, even parenting. I read this article today about wardrobe basics. I’m forever trying to stock my closet so I look like…well, someone super cool. It never works, and I default to the navy blue T-shirt and jeans just about every day, but it’s still a new year so I’ll delude…
The last few days of the year always feel like the back pages of a notebook. The are still useable, but there isn’t enough room to start a project or even write a full chapter. It’s the end, time to wrap things up. I often use this time to look back over the previous pages,…
Just imagine if we could all be ourselves. I’m not sure we wouldn’t kill each other, but no doubt we would let out a collective sigh of relief. The expectations of others is only outdone by the expectations we put on ourselves. The pressure can be immense. I feel like one of the bennies of…
A 1.8 million year old skull was found in Dmanisi, Georgia and I am once again in awe. I tend to wonder about the people that came before me and those that will follow when I’m gone. I think about it a lot, always have. I look at old photographs and feel a connection to people.…
Someday I will be dead. I know it’s an obvious statement for a lot of people, but I’ve only recently thought about it. I don’t normally feel mortal. I mean I get that I won’t live forever, but I’m not exactly in touch with the death thing. I don’t do any death defying work or…